Hormones and ambition in a woman are never in synch. Just when the woman gets to know herself the hormones take a U Turn, they lose the fire and are declared clinically suppressed. All through Teenage, adolescence, maternity, pre-menopause and menopause, we women are negotiating the familiar enemy. These chemicals arouse and excite the woman and also enable as well as disable. Where is the autonomy on one’s body and mind? We are being managed instead of us managing them. We are staring at a large wall with all these timepieces – career clock, biological clock, a marriage clock and of course the beauty clock. The real drama starts in the mid 40’s, our ambition soars, the teenage years of the children play havoc, marriage needs a reboot, parents age and out of body experience starts. Our existence lies in fighting the repeated insurgency of these aspects demanding their own pound of flesh. Allies In the world war had plotted to slip estrogen To Hitler To Make Him ‘Less Aggressive’ and more feminine. A feminized Hitler would be less aggressive, and thus less inclined to kill, or that if he lost his facial hair and grew breasts he will not be a leader. Is equality then just a dream and are we living with this handicap all our life?There is no rationale as to when and what we feel, it is as complex as a high stake stock trading. In this battle of booming and subsiding estrogen and testosterone, women are handcrafting endings to their many stories and working towards realizing their ambition.Many lean towards a little help from external sources like the testosterone to boost the mental and physical drive Since each person’s chemical balance is so individual, there’s a possibility that less drive at work may be a result of wisdom. As we get wiser, one wrinkle at a time, one meeting at a time, one day at a time is what we all need while marching towards realizing what we want to do and be. To combat the enemy we need to build and own an arsenal as a leader ready for the insurgency.Ambition after all is a strong desire to do something but if the enemy is within, then we better be prepared and alert.